Light switches

10 12 2011

I take showers in the dark
so I cannot see where you used to touch me,
so I no longer see my fingerprints on the wall
where you used to bend me over,
the water cascading on your head,
the sound of God’s clapping,
approval for your deed.

I am careful not to trace the paths on my skin with my own hands,
skimming worn out trails,
and instead scrubbing them into red.

I keep my eyes closed,
so that my tears do not escape–
become evidence–
when I open them and not see you there,
head a mop of bubbles,
grinning back at me.

I leave the light off when I dress.
Your feelings may be light switches,
flicking them on for me,
and off when I’m gone.
But I stay in the dark because I am still feeling for the switch
which may not even be there.





Rainy City

31 01 2010

Another song I don’t play anymore.  I did once, live, but it was a disaster and I’ve been kind of embarrassed of the song since then.  Well, enjoy!

Rainy City

I’ve been feeling like a tourist lately,
Letting all these new attractions shape me,
Until I’ve fallen all over again.

It starts with small glassy droplets
Soothing the streets and stoplights
And puts my wandering mind at ease

This is my…

Chorus:

Rainy city
Gently glistening
Here is my song for her
This is the rainy city
My lonely/van city
Can’t you rain a little longer?

Anxious anticipation is killing me
As I walk down the streets to infinity
Hoping for someone to recognize my song

But in my magical town of showers
Where it’s always better if it’s louder
I can finally rest in peace.

Chorus

The hats on these old men
Won’t keep the water out
And like an enchanting rhapsody
I can’t stop dreaming about

Chorus

I’ve been feeling like a tourist lately,
Letting all these new attractions shape me,
Until I’ve fallen for the rain.