Duquesne Whistle

I find this really sad.

“Rabbit Heart (Raise it Up)” — Florence + The Machine

This woman (and her music) is awesome.  I wish I could write lyrics like her.

The Hardest Part

Really digging this song at the moment.  I realized that all of Coldplay’s songs that have a line or two about heartbreak (some more subtle than others), and that’s why I really like some of their songs.  I wouldn’t call myself a fan, but every once in a while, I’ll have a Coldplay craving and there’s that one perfect song that just fits my mood.

One of my favourite parts in “The Hardest Part” is the bridge before the end, the part that goes like this:

Everything I know is wrong
Everything I do just comes undone
And everything is torn apart
Oh and it’s the hardest part

I’ll let you think about why that is.

Note: the video is 8 minutes long but the actual song is about 4 and a half minutes.  I suppose that silence is there for you to think about what you just heard and to digest it thoughtfully, which of course, you’d be doing anyway, right?

Fiona Apple setlist

Saw Fiona Apple in concert for the first time last night, and it was.

Amazing.

To say the least.  The videos on youtube don’t do it justice.  Nowhere near it.

I wrote down her setlist as she played.  Surprised at how many songs she played from When the Pawn… especially after the release of her new album (which is awesome).

Fast as You Can
On the Bound
Shadowboxer
Paper Bag
Anything We Want
Get Gone
Sleep to Dream
Extraordinary Machine
Werewolf
Tymps
Daredevil
I Know
Every Single Night
Criminal
Carrion
Not about Love

Encore:
It’s Only Make Believe (cover)

She didn’t talk much to the audience, which is a shame because I would’ve loved to hear her speak more.  Also, she re-interpreted “Not About Love” by screaming angrily “This is not about love/’cause I am not in love!” at that part, which was pretty surprising.

Anyway, awesome awesome show.  And to top it off, I got my seat upgraded from all the way in the back of the balcony, to row 18 on the floor.  Yeah!

And then we can do anything we want

I’ve listened to this a few times already, but just now, as I was hearing it again, it made me tear up.  The lyric “when we find some time alone”, leading up to the chorus, “And then we can do anything we want” is probably the cause of my oh-so-sensitive tear ducts.

Well, this is going to be my song for the day (read: I will now play this on repeat for the next 24 hours and will surprisingly not get tired of it).

 

Every single night’s a fight with my brain

When I posted that as my facebook status this morning, I got a message from a friend: “Every night is a fight with your brain? What do you mean?”

My response:

“That’s actually a lyric from a Fiona Apple song. I take it to mean that every night, I have to fight my brain to fall asleep because it keeps going and going and I can’t shut it up. More importantly, my brain takes the same paths, constantly reminding me of past events, associates things with people that dredge up memories that only cause pain and sadness. I used to succumb to my brain, but now I have to fight it every night just to not feel bad.”

Untitled song

Was playing this song earlier and I really dug it, which doesn’t happen a lot with my own songs.  I should probably get on recording this and my “album” sometime.

Untitled

Here lie the fragments of a broken yesterday,
and the soul of a boy cursed to live it.
“This is a headline in my mind,” they all would say,
as the ties begin to curdle and they mutter, “I can’t forgive it.”

Salty hands, wiping down the rivers on your face
before shoving them in pockets hoping no one sees.
Must be comfortable living in that little bubble,
and when I turn around to wave all I get is your back to me.

CHORUS:
Blink once, and I’m still here.
And once again, you’re too near.
I wish we could disappear
from this town.

Black and white, the only shades that appear to you.
My heart is just a pawn in your little chess game.
Stare as hard as you want, but this ain’t no magic mirror,
and in the end when I’m gone all you’ll have is yourself to blame.

Blink once, you’re still here.
And once again, I’m too near.
I wish we could disappear
from this town.
From this town.

If there’s a place that exists that we can finally go,
Take my hand, we’ll board a train, or we’ll never know…

CHORUS:
Blink once, and we’re still here.
And once again, everybody’s getting nearer.
I wish we could disappear
from this town.
Or we’ll never know.

Maybe

I’m confusing as hell
I’m north and south
And I’ll probably never have it all figured out
But what I know is I wasn’t meant to walk this world without you
And I promise I’ll try
Yeah I’m gonna try to give you every little part of me
Every single detail you missed with your eyes
Then maybe
Maybe, yeah maybe

I need to be loved
I just need to be loved
I just want to be loved by you and I won’t stop ’cause I believe
That maybe, yeah maybe
Maybe, yeah maybe

“Faithfully” — Journey

For whatever reason, I found myself watching an old clip from Glee, and suddenly, I dug “Faithfully” a lot.  Then I searched up the original by Journey, and it’s so good!  I know there is a lot of hate for Glee, but I honestly wouldn’t have listened to Journey without Glee‘s help, and I think that’s one of the positive effects about the show.  It exposes younger audiences to music and artists they may not have even heard of.

As someone on youtube posted, “Lol I think it’s stupid to compare, Glee and Journey are different, Glee introduced me singers I didn’t even know. They are not trying to be better. That is just my opinion.”  I agree with this.

The Scientist

I finally understand the meaning of the title and this song.

A scientists tests hypotheses, analyzes data and evidence, and comes up with a conclusion.  I realize this may be redundant, as I’ve mentioned this in previous posts, but I’ve been poring over what happened with me and G. these last few months (It’s such a shame for us to part…), analyzing what happened, both our lives and what we wanted, in order to come up with a viable solution.  Even though we had decided to break up, I couldn’t just change my feelings for someone I had been with for more than 9 months. I genuinely felt that our situation was one that could be solved if we– or rather, I– spent enough time to figure things out (Questions of science/science and progress do not speak as loud as my heart).  That’s why I never felt completely terrible when we broke up and the following months because I still thought there might be hope.

It took me half a year to figure it out, to come to a conclusion and a possible solution (I had to find you/tell you I need you).  I think some people think that once a couple breaks up, it’s done forever.  But G. was someone special– obviously, since I was with him for so long (tell you I set you apart).  In addition to thinking about a solution, I also reminisced about all the times we spent together including the times we said “I love you” to each other, all the sweet things I’d do for him, and (last but definitely not least) all the times we had awesome sex.  Essentially, I made myself sad (tell me you love me/come back and haunt me).  A lot of the time, I wished we could try again, and I suggested it to him (Oh, let’s go back to the start…), but to no avail (running in circles/coming up tails/heads on a science apart)

When he told me he was seeing someone, any hope I had left was gone.  I’m not even going to attempt to describe how much it hurt, more than anything he’s claimed he ever done to hurt me (no one ever said it would be this hard). 

And now.  Now with my newfound science and knowledge, I’m forced to start again without him.

I’m going back to the start…

I am the scientist.