Rejection dream

Had a dream the other night where I received a letter from a publishing house I had sent my book proposal to a couple months ago. The letter was terribly scrawled; it looked like some third-grader had written it. I tried my best to decipher what it said, and the gist of it was that they had passed, saying my proposal/book was “exaggerated.”

This past week I’ve been anxious about receiving anything from from the actual publishing company I sent my proposal to. I check the mailbox every day, dreading to see the self-addressed stamped envelope I included in my proposal, while also being paranoid that the longer it takes, the more the answer is no. I also wonder whether or not they even received my proposal and am further paranoid they never did. Basically a lot of anxiety and paranoia. Between games of Age of Empires.

Wish me luck

Sent off my book proposal today to a literary agency. Also today, got yet another rejection from a literary mag. I really go wonder if so much rejection means my work is shitty and not good enough to be book. Fingers crossed though.

Expectations

When you have certain expectations for things and they don’t turn out as you thought they would, it kinda sucks.

Case in point: I wrote a proposal for a final project for one of my classes and I thought I had done a decent job. And even though I only got a B, which in itself is fine, I had a note that said, “Redo. Your questions don’t match up with your sources/methods”. I guess part of the reason I felt pretty bummed when I saw the mark and the comments was that I’m a Writing Tutor, so I should be getting A’s and such on things like this. Argh.

Whatever. I have other more important and fun things to write anyway.