Had a Cole Porter marathon yesterday while making dinner and it made me feel warm and not alone as I probably would have felt. Also, this song is just brilliant.
Had a Cole Porter marathon yesterday while making dinner and it made me feel warm and not alone as I probably would have felt. Also, this song is just brilliant.
In the mood for some sad jazz.
I fall in love too easily,
I fall in love too fast.
I fall in love too terribly hard
for love to ever last.
My heart should be well schooled
’cause I’ve been fooled in the past.
But still I fall in love too easily,
I fall in love too fast.
I have a theory that for a few days a month, I have PMS– which is different than menstruation. This theory is backed up by empirical evidence showing that I dwell upon my ex and have, at times, emotional episodes. Side effects include unexplained crying, bawling, staring at the wall a little too long in deep thought, mood swings, and the need and want to stay in bed forever. Research has shown that PMS occurs around the full moon period every month, which makes sense, since full moons are supposed to be the time when people go batshit.
Since I am finishing up my cycle for the month, I am still relatively vulnerable to emotions (read: can still easily burst into tears), I was set to play Amy Winehouse’s “Love is a Losing Game” on the piano but flipped to “Back to Black” and started playing it just for fun. Except it was not actually fun, but lead to a brief emotional period (read: teared up when playing it), one that I had never experienced when I heard the song before. It’s one of those songs that only means something when you’ve heard it in a different context much later. All the words finally make sense, are all relatable in some way. I don’t know whether that’s a good thing or a bad one.
One of my favourite Chet Baker songs that I could probably listen to forever until I get old and die. I love how the subject matter is about being alone after a breakup and coming to terms that a lover is “not for me” but it’s in such an upbeat, swung jazz tempo that it’s kind of oddly reassuring in a way.
If it wasn’t obvious already, I’m really digging this song at the moment because… well, you can probably guess. I guess he’s not for me…
For some reason, I haven’t posted anything from the great Chet Baker yet, so it’s due time I finally get to it. I’m a super, crazy fan for his music, particularly when he sings; I remember the first time I heard it I was so in awe and blown away from his impeccable, smooth, brilliant tone that I was speechless. And his trumpet skills are pretty amazing and smooth as well.
I have a CD of songs that Chet sings and it’s honestly one of my favourite albums I have. To pick a song from there, is really hard, but I have a friend who’s a little sad from life and is staying put on his couch for the next week or two… or three, I’m not sure, and I saw him yesterday. He’s doing alright and he seems to be fine, but I can see that there’s an air of sadness to his voice and it makes me sad because he’s usually talkative and bubbly. So this post is dedicated to my friend in the hopes that he doesn’t stay couch-ridden and sad for much longer.
Day 27: A song that you wish you could play
I’ve posted this “song” before and have commented on it already so I don’t have much else to say. A difficult Chopin piece of which I’ve taught myself about half of so far but the last half awaits me and my cursing when I screw up. I’m working on it though…
Day 28: A song that makes you feel guilty
This is probably the most difficult one I’ve had to pick so far, just because I had NO idea of any song that makes me feel guilty. I think part of the reason I couldn’t think of one was because the songs I mainly listen to make me sad or are sad and songs that I’d listen to when I’m sad, but none that make me feel guilty. And why guilty? Out of all the emotions out there, why choose a song that makes you feel guilty? I didn’t realize there were supposed to be a lot of songs for this category, but apparently so, or else they might’ve asked me for a song that makes me feel like constipated or scared of heights.
Anyway, the best I could do was Vivian Green’s take on the jazz standard “Love For Sale” by Cole Porter. I’ve listened to a few version of this song and I had seen De-lovely (but have forgotten most of it since it was kind of a meh movie) but didn’t remember her singing “Love For Sale” in the film at all. It’s a darker, more melancholic take on the song, I think, and as much as I am open about discussing most of everything in my life, the song reminds me of a period in my life that I’m certainly not proud of. Judging by the lyrics, I’m sure you can come to some conclusion about what that might be.
I’ve loved Chet Baker since the following two events:
1. His music being mentioned in David Levithan’s Boy Meets Boy, which is one of my favourite books.
2. Since my former high school choir teacher compared my singing to Mr. Baker (which I don’t agree with since he’s way more fantastic than I’ll ever be, but thanks Ms. Comfort!)
I then went out and bought a couple Chet Baker CDs, but was really more interested in hearing songs where he sings, since I absolutely adore his voice. After listening to him singing to awesome classic jazz songs like this one, Gershwin’s “Not For Me”, I came up with the idea of slow dancing with a guy to Chet which would totally make him fall in love with me — or maybe I would fall in love with someone who did that for me. In any case, I finally got to put my plan into works when I invited my current boyfriend to my house where we watched a movie. I then took out my stereo, popped in Mr. Baker, and when “Not For Me” started playing, I took his hand and invited him for a slow dance which lasted… well, for a while.
Romantic? I think so! Thanks, Chet, for helping me seduce my boyfriend!