When Love’s Gone Away (Scott’s Theme)

I realized I actually haven’t posted any of my instrumental pieces on my blog, probably because they don’t involve any sort of words, but I could still talk about them.  Which I will!  Starting with this one.

This was written many years ago.  I had just broken up with my first “boyfriend”– I say “boyfriend” because we never physically met, but had been exchanging messages and IM’ing online for quite some time.  After about 2 and a half weeks or something, I had a feeling of insecurity, wondered if he really was who he was.  Instead of showing me who he was, he broke things off, citing that if I wasn’t comfortable with us being together then we shouldn’t be together.  Of course, I was sad and distraught, since I all I wanted was for him to prove to me he still liked me.  I ended up writing this instrumental piece for him, originally called “For a Friend”, then re-titled it because I didn’t feel like it was quite right.  At the same time, Vanessa Carlton just started performing her song “Fools Like Me” live (long before the studio version was ever released), and a lyric in the song, it’s all in the little ways one reveals their love’s gone away/love’s gone away really made me sad.

I’m still constantly reminded that love can go away, that even if I’m in love, it doesn’t mean the other person feels the same.  Everything comes and goes.

It’s been a while since I’ve played this one, but I think I should learn it again.

“Fairweather Friend” — Vanessa Carlton

Rabbits On the Run, Vanessa Carlton’s fourth studio album was released this past Tuesday and I’m still waiting to get my signed copy in the mail, but I’ve heard all the songs already.  🙂   Anyway, this is one of the songs on the record and for whatever reason, it’s been stuck in my head all day.  When I first heard this song when she performed it live a couple years back, I thought it was an alright song, but the more I listen to it now, the more I see and notice the details in the words Vanessa’s chosen, and it gets that much stronger every time.

Have a listen yourself: (and get the CD!)

30 Day Song Challenge: Day 23: A song that you want to play at your wedding

Well, this is an easy one.

At a certain point, the thought of having “Home” by Vanessa Carlton playing at my wedding must’ve entered my mind because I remember vividly and suddenly realizing, “Omg!  I can see it now: a small, classy wedding outside on a sunny day and my husband walking down the aisle (not set in stone!) while Vanessa Carlton is playing.  Ahhh… perfect.”  I can also imagine the piano solo at the end playing during the opening of the wedding too.  Oh, and I sang this to my boyfriend in public at my last show… which I hope he appreciated.

Sometimes I think thinking of my wedding makes me seem super gay… but then I realize it’s not that big a deal and at least I haven’t decided what flowers I want and theme for the wedding should have lots of whites and–

Nevermind.

Double music post

I’m sure you’re all dying to know what happens in the last part of The Meaning of Life, but why not create more suspense and post something else instead!  It just happened that I had one of those days where a seemingly (good) random song gets stuck in your headand you just go around singing it all day long but not too loud on the street so that people give you weird looks?  Yup, that happened today, mainly the first song/vid: Jeremy Fisher’s “Scar That Never Heals”. Everything this guy plays is golden.   Seriously, he can never go wrong in my books and the fact that he’s Canadian is beyond awesome.

The second song/vid is from Vanessa Carlton, who, as many of my friends know, I am an uber fan of.  I’m surprised I haven’t already posted a link to one of her songs already but this is certainly one of her best.  I played it earlier this evening on my piano and it made me tear up a bit because of the notion behind the song — that if we were to declare we only needed one or two things in this instant, we would, in theory, be happy and satisfied.  We wouldn’t need anything more than this.  Here’s “More Than This”.