A month in review

I made it a goal of mine at the beginning of August to post one new post every single day and I did it!  In fact, I’ve been posting something every day since July 29th, which is pretty cool.  Or at least I think it’s cool because I never used to post this frequently.  I’m going to do my best to post something every day but with school coming up that may not be possible.  I have a 3 hour break in between my classes so I could do it then.  Anyway.

I also realized I try to be funny in these posts but I’m not.  That saddens me.  I like to believe I’m somewhat witty but I usually do it when someone says something rather than typing up random funny stuff.  Also I’m tired and not sure why that’s the case since I go to bed at around 1am and I still don’t really feel tired.  Maybe it’s from reading almost the first hundred pages of The Amber Spyglass I borrowed today (it’s so good!).

My sent me a link to some of Kelly Clarkson’s leaked demos.  There are 30 songs in there and some of them are kinda, really bad.  Seriously, a song called “Cleopatra”?  I almost feel bad for not liking them… almost.  She’s still awesome in my eyes.  Just not some of her songs.

Okay, I’m gonna stop trying to fill a post and end it here.  The end.

Forgotten Memory (Aisle 8)

Forgotten Memory ( Aisle 8 )

I spend a lot of time
Relentlessly pursuing what I’d erased
You think I would’ve learned my lesson
But that isn’t the case

And I’m bleeding out the memories of you
The ones that leaked from my head
And as it trickles down my arm
I grasp every word ever said

So the minutes pass by
As I waste another precious moment
In aisle 8
Yeah, the seconds tick by
As I waste another precious moment
Staring at a faded memory
In the arms of aisle 8

Fumbling with a string of forgotten words
I remember the reason I’m here
Oh you barrage and you fight me like a disease
Until it becomes me who has disappeared

And the record skips one more time around
Capturing glimpses of the past
But it does no good as it reminds me
Of all the things I longed to have

Repeat chorus

And I wish I had the decency to see
All the things that blinded me
From the world and everything completely
I learn to tune you out finally

Repeat chorus

Empty

I guess it would be appropriate to start my blog of writing with the first song lyrics I wrote when I was 17. At the time, I felt very alone and kinda depressed and didn’t have an outlet for my thoughts. One thing lead to another and I found myself writing and re-writing lyrics to what would be the first song I wrote.

At the bottom of the page is the video for the song.

Empty

I lie to make myself feel better
But even after, I’m still dead
Something inside yearns for more
More than this, more than this

And though I’ve not fully understood it
My mind plays tricks on me
Telling me that there’s more to life
Than the world that I see

CHORUS
Empty
Empty
After all is said and done
I still feel empty

I’ve fallen so many times it’s hard to think twice
To the point where my misery becomes my bliss
And everything they say is a way to die
and everything else is always a lie

And though I’ve not fully understood it
My mind plays tricks on me
Telling me that there’s more to life
Than this world that I see

CHORUS x2
I don’t wanna feel
I don’t wanna feel
I don’t wanna feel anymore
I don’t wanna feel
I don’t wanna feel
I don’t want to, I don’t want to feel… anymore

I lie to make myself feel better
But even after, I’m still…