This week

8 02 2015

I will send out my book proposal. I’m nearly finished it now, and I realized I’ve been tacking on information that isn’t necessary to a former book proposal I wrote last year (I’ve been looking at guidelines for non-fiction proposals and I think they’re more for geared for real non-fiction, not creative non-fiction). I wrote it for a class on what to do after graduation, and my instructor, who teaches creative non-fiction, told me it was fine. Now I’m realizing that it basically was. Better late than never, I suppose.

But this week! For sure. I’ve been sitting on this for too long. And been playing too much Pokemon. Damn you, Pokemon!

I think I’m done?

30 01 2015

My book proposal. It’s hard to say. I’ve gotten a previous draft looked over by an instructor last year, and she said it was great. I guess I’m not sure if I should re-format it according to literary agency standards or not; my book proposal has all the same info as the one they’ve laid out, but just in a different order and sections. I wish there was someone I could ask about this…

Oh, and after I was done, I proceeded to play Pokemon for more than an hour. I didn’t deserve to do that, honestly.

Last month to finish my book

1 12 2014

I said in November that I’d spend the month semi-taking part in NaNoWriMo, except that I’d be finishing my memoir instead of writing a whole new book. Obviously that didn’t go quite as planned since I was in California for a week, and then I just got lazy after that. I did manage to finish another chapter last week that I had been planning to send to the Prairie Fire contest but after getting some feedback, there’s a lot of work to be done before sending it out anywhere. So now I’m planning to try and finish the book by the end of the month/year, then send out proposal to get a literary agent in January. If I don’t manage to finish, I can use the time that I’ll be waiting to hear back from literary agencies. We’ll see how that goes.

If I don’t manage to get anything published this month, I’ll have gotten an entire year of rejections. (although I did get a piece published in Existere but I submitted that on December 31st of last year) Man, it’s been a crappy year for getting published.

Endings Part 2

30 10 2014

I have an ending. Not sure how I feel about it, but it’ll do for now. Once again, I was writing in my brain for a while and discussing to myself about the whole notion of endings, typical narrative endings vs. ones that stray from the norm, how they all work. If only I had someone to converse with instead of feeling like a crazy person for keeping everything in my head and exhausting any mental capabilities I have.


29 10 2014

Usually I’m pretty good with writing endings for stories, but this play I’m working on is got me scratching my head (and not just from my itchy scalp). I keep thinking the perfect ending will just come to me but I have to submit the finished play by Friday so I wish the creative process would just hurry the frick along and come to me already. I can’t afford to pull another last minute submission like I did last time.

Writing in my mind

7 10 2014

When people think of writing, they think of writing on a piece of paper, on a computer. But at least for me, ideas, stories, characters, structure — they’re all considered, sifted in my mind even before my fingers ever touch a keyboard or a pen. I’ve been pushing myself to come up with an idea for a one-act play by next week for the Vancouver Asian Canadian Theatre’s MSG Lab and was stuck for a while. Then I came up with what I think is a pretty interesting idea, and certainly a somewhat controversial one, and have been figuring out how the story will unfold since yesterday — all the deliberations done in my head. At least for me, it helps a lot more to know what the story will be, generally, before I ever go and write. Last year, when I did NaNoWriMo, I had an idea for a novel I wanted to write but ultimately couldn’t get more than 200 or so words down because I didn’t know the characters, setting, and story well enough to know how it was supposed to go.

The biggest challenge for me is writing a complete one-act play, which I’ve never done before. I’m also in the process of writing a two/three-act play but even that was a struggle because I’m not used to writing longer forms. The longest play I wrote was just over ten pages and it was on the shorter side compared to the other plays at the Brave New Play Rites Festival earlier this year. I guess I feel like some of the pages in between the beginning and the end are filler pages, and I don’t want there to be any. Anyway, it’s my play and I should be able to do with it how I want. Now let’s see if I can knock off a draft or two before next week.

Another rejection

23 09 2014

People really don’t seem to like my personal essays. Maybe I’m just writing them wrong or their not very good, I don’t know. It’s a bit of a downer especially because the rejection was from a queer literary mag based in BC, and this is the third rejection I’ve gotten from them (or is it four?). Gah. Really frustrating.

Simultaneous submissions scare me

20 09 2014

I’m so used to playing by the rules and obeying authority that doing anything against them, even if it is the right thing, is scary. Andreas Schroeder, my fantastic instructor while I was in the Creative Writing Program at UBC, told me to send my work to multiple places, even if they advise writers not to.

“Fuck ’em,” he said brazenly. “They’ve been saying that for so long without a care for us writers who have to wait months to hear back — and it’s mostly a no — so fuck ’em. It’s only now that we’re starting to get a bit more control back. Just tell them your piece isn’t available anymore and they’ll get the hint.”

Despite his advice, I’ve never sent out a piece to multiple lit mags. Until today. After watching The Square and seeing people revolting against the status quo, the regime that oppressed them, it made me feel a little better about what I was doing. Though of course I could very well be rejected by both these publications and all this trouble and fear wouldn’t matter anyway. I realized that despite all the submissions I’ve had this year, I haven’t had a single acceptance. Yet? I hope.


29 07 2014

You told me last night
in the only place I see you now,
that we will be together in 2017.

You were conducting the orchestra
at my graduation. When everyone saw
you, they bowed reverently. But our bodies the only ones
standing, our eyes stayed
on each other.

You always had that effect on me.

With your hand on mine, we flipped through songs,
you laughing at my “bad” taste. I don’t see
your face, but I feel you there, warm and familiar.

I will be 29. You, 31. It will
have been ten years since we felt ourselves
together. Sometime, between the next
two and a half to three and a half years, you
will be back, and you will look at me,
and you will smile just like in the memories
I clutch onto every day.

You smiled, and it was as it you had never aged.

Then, when I woke up, I felt my face contort as if pulled
by wires, a sadness boiling from my gut to my face.

I cried.

June 7th

7 06 2014

Today shall be the day when Aaron and Wendy’s web series was spawned. Now if only they could get their act together and make it happen.