Thanks for trying to distract me

even as you mumbled “nothing much would change”,
even as you made appreciated small talk,
even as you generously offered me Smarties,
even as you wrapped your arms around my frozen body,
even as you stroked my cheek,
even as you feebly smiled at my flat-lipped face,
even as you gazed into my eyes, fixed to the ceiling,
even as you pulled me to you and I let you,
even as you hummed the song in my ear,
even as you wiped emotions from your beard,

I thought and I knew and I thought and I knew and I thought and I knew–

Everything has changed.