Every single night’s a fight with my brain

When I posted that as my facebook status this morning, I got a message from a friend: “Every night is a fight with your brain? What do you mean?”

My response:

“That’s actually a lyric from a Fiona Apple song. I take it to mean that every night, I have to fight my brain to fall asleep because it keeps going and going and I can’t shut it up. More importantly, my brain takes the same paths, constantly reminding me of past events, associates things with people that dredge up memories that only cause pain and sadness. I used to succumb to my brain, but now I have to fight it every night just to not feel bad.”