combined with the fact that I have 10 minutes to type something moderately substantial before midnight, I don’t have much to say anymore. Should I try to find another challenge to regularly post material about or should I continue to post my own stuff? According to my dashboard, I get around 15 – 20 views a day, which I find absolutely incredible since I didn’t think anyone would be the slightest bit interested in what I have to comment on. But it’s fantastic nonetheless!
I will say that I was emailing my friend about having another short film in the Queer Film Festival here in Vancouver and he remarked that I was “making a name for myself” but I really don’t feel the same. I feel like yes, I do have some short films to show for, and yes, they have been getting into festivals and all that. But what is their impact? What has it lead to? Stay so far hasn’t gotten me much in terms of talks with producers or film people and On the Bus, although I wrote it, most people wanted to talk to the director, not me. I guess what I’m trying to say is, if I continue to make films that despite getting into festivals but don’t lead to anything bigger, what am I going to do? It’s all fun to make a film but I don’t want to keep making zero budget films forever with meh sound (very much meh in Stay). Success is different for every person but what if my films don’t allow me to reach my own goal of success?
There’s no way to know that until I make a film and send it out, but at the same time, I can’t make an awesome super duper film on zero budget (well, I could try but it would be hard). What to do? Suggestions?
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